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STP brothers, Boulder, c 1971

When I was young, in the 70s, I spent a good deal of time on the road, sticking out my thumb, heading for adventure. The summer of 1972 was pivotal for me personally, a reckoning that came when my naive countercultural wave crashed on the rocks of human nature. That is a long story, and I wrote about it a bit a few years ago, of the draft hanging over me that summer (my lottery number was 5), of many adventures and characters encountered, of contracting salmonella at Earth People’s Park in Vermont, of hitching to the first Rainbow Family of Living Light festival in Colorado, where I had a relapse, of my disillusionment with the counterculture of the time.

But I have never written about, and seldom thought about, the STP Family.

The STP Family was a rough tribe of street hippies that seemed to be everywhere the counterculture was collectively burning out in the early 70s. Originating in NYC, they moved en masse to the mountains near Boulder, but traveled widely. They could be found panhandling in Boston and Berkeley, by the side of the road, thumbs out, just about anywhere, in the camps reserved for drinkers at various festivals.

The story I heard was that “STP” stood for “Serenity, Tranquility, Peace”, and that the STP Family was formed by a group of Greenwich Village hippies who vowed to stay high on STP, a psychedelic drug of the era that kept one in a hallucinatory state for 72 hours, as opposed to LSD’s 12.

Why anyone thought that such a regimen would bring serenity or tranquility or peace is beyond me. Though they were very young.

Another version was that it stood for “Sagittarius, Taurus, Pisces”, the astrological signs of the three founders.

And there are other accounts.


STP Family photo…

Whatever the case, the Family evolved into a very hard living, drug addled subsect of the counterculture. Most people just thought of them as burnouts, and some called them “street monsters”.

They were panhandlers and dealers and thieves, ripoff artists and drunks. They took any drug they could score and were noteworthy for the glazed look in their eyes.

You could spot them by their clothes. Their “habit” consisted of denim patched with leather and scraps of cloth, with an “STP” emblem, the logo of the oil treatment company, somewhere in the mix. Often their clothing was decorated with the skulls of small animals.

They were dirty and smelly and they were violent ( unlike most hippies outside of Detroit, they liked guns). They were violent not least because also unlike most hippies, who limited alcohol use to the occasional bottle of wine, they drank heavily.

Very heavily; mostly rotgut wine, but liquor of any kind they could get their hands on as well. One concoction, of grape Kool Aid and Everclear grain alcohol, was called Purple Jesus.

In Colorado they lived in the mountains in tents, lean-tos and cabins. They claimed to be mountain men, and bragged of killing bears. Probably bullshit, but they did have necklaces of what they said were bear claws, and leather laces from which hung alleged bear teeth.

More bizarrely, there are eyewitnesses that said the Family ate their dead in a spiritual ceremony. Granted, these witnesses had imbibed large doses of hallucinogens and God knows what, but you never know.

They were the original primitives, the Neanderthal tribe of the counterculture.

I never knew anything about their individual backgrounds. The vibe was rough, like the Hell’s Angels without bikes and resources, and one assumed that these were working class folks. Like I said, they brought Detroit to mind. But maybe that was part of the facade; the Village origins, and some rumored history with anarchist offshoots of the Yippies may indicate that these were grad school dropouts, the sons of lawyers.

They had colorful nicknames, like Spooky, Deputy Dawg, Grody, Patty Rotten Crotch, Wabbit, Daisy May, Asshole Dave (of the affiliated Asshole Family).

I knew Spooky a little; I met him in Boston, where I was peddling underground newspapers on Harvard Square to make money for travel. He was stoned out, for sure, but oddly gentle, for an STP guy. He always carried a grey kitten and his eyes looked to some place far away.

If the Family had one virtue it was loyalty to one another. They called themselves a “family” and like a family they stuck up for one another, as many a hapless fool discovered when he insulted one of them.

A lot of them met violent deaths. Deputy Dawg, for example, was murdered by a Colorado cop, who got away with it but made a confession on his deathbed. Dawg was all of 19 when he died.

I recount all of this because the other night, goofing on the internet, I searched for the STP Family.

And found, to my surprise, that not only were they not all dead, but they have an online presence and  occasional reunions. There are pages of photos posted by their kids, of when dad and mom were the dregs of the counterculture, like the albums we have of my mom and dad as young spiffily dressed newlyweds, straight off the farm.

It is a testimony to human resilience that not only are a lot of that ragtag band still alive, they have children and grandchildren, some of whom wax nostalgic about their folks, like, well, most people.

That those so far gone did not die but lived to see children and grandchildren, to navigate the earthly sphere with some semblance of normalcy after such a druggy, dazed sojourn, is a testimony to the resilience of the human spirit and of the human body. It is like me, reconnecting with old druggy friends, to find that not only did the ones who did not OD make it through, but many of them appear to have done better than a lot of my religious friends from the era. It is purely anecdotal, but the stoners have a much lower divorce rate, with the girlfriends they married, than my zealous Christian friends had with their spouses.

Life is full of mystery and complexity. Any conclusions are tentative.

I had no love for the STP Family in my traveling days. I was wary of them, as was anyone with any sense. Indeed, they were only the most colorful examples of the sorts of characters I encountered in my travels that summer, who collectively soured me on my counterculture dreams.

But I am unspeakably grateful that so many of them appear to have survived and prospered.

Yay humanity.


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The Iris and the Peony

It is that time again, when the peonies, inebriated by their own beauty, begin to keel over.

But is there anything lovelier than irises and peonies growing beside one another? Like chocolate and almonds, tequila and lime: some things just go together.

I still feel like I am waking up from a very long, very cold, dream.

The Visible Hand

For forty years we have been hearing about the wonders of the magic market. If  the incredibly smart capitalists are left to pursue their selfish money making with minimum – some would say no- regulation, the argument goes, wealth will be generated, which by the workings of the Invisible Hand, will reward the creative and punish the indolent and secure prosperity for all.

Except it hasn’t exactly worked out that way, has it? Deregulation and low taxes have resulted, visibly, not invisibly, in unprecedented economic disparity, high unemployment, and a working class reduced to poverty wages.

Yet the free market ideologues yammer on, as if everything had worked according to their model.

Lest there be any doubt, Cardinal Oscar Rodriguez Maridiaga, the so-called ‘vice pope’ has clarified that libertarianism is incompatible with Catholicism at a conference in DC devoted to a critique of libertarianism in light of Catholic Social Teaching.

In defending Francis against his critics the Cardinal said:

  “No to an economy of exclusion” (53). With this title Pope Francis already denotes the essential characteristic of today’s economy, which he rejects. He ties in with the Ten Commandments. The commandment “You shall not kill” (Ex 20,13) defines a limit aimed at securing the value of human life. From this biblical view he says “no to an economy of exclusion and to inequality in income” (53). And Francis describes this in concrete terms very clearly: “How can it be that it is not a news item when an elderly homeless person dies of exposure, but it is news when the stock market loses two points? This is a case of exclusion.” And I think each and any of you may know of similar fates from people in your country.

As a pastor in a very poor country I know how much of daily insecurity is connected with this situation of poverty- insecurity for the children in particular, but also big worries for mothers and fathers that do not know how to get drinking water, food, medical care or school education for their children. Global economy under the conditions of libertarianism excludes such people. Since their point of view a human being is a consumer. If she or he is incapable of consuming this type of economy does not need her of him, can do away with her or him. From this, Francis concludes: “It is no longer simply about exploitation and oppression, but something new. Exclusion ultimately has to do with what it means to be a part of the society in which we live; those excluded are no longer society’s underclass or its fringes or its disenfranchised- they are no longer even a part of it. The excluded are not the “exploited” but waste, “rubbish” (53).


The full text of his remarks can be found at the end of this blog post:


Condescension, Thy Name is Novak

“Scholar Who Taught John Paul II To Appreciate Capitalism Worries About Pope Francis”. That is the title of an article from Forbes and if you guessed it is about millionaire theologian and armchair economist Michael Novak, you would be right. If, after you have thrown up a little, you can stomach more, you may read an interview with Mr Novak, rich in hubris and dogged ideological posturing, here:


Yes, I know, Mr Novak would not describe himself as a libertarian. Neither would Fr Sirico. But as far as I can see the only difference is that the neoconservatives and Actonites also are neocolonialists, while libertarians generally oppose political empire…

Francis’ Greatest Gift

holy napkinAs welcome as Francis’ direct criticism of economic liberalism has been -and there was a time, not so long ago, when it appeared triumphant, even in the Vatican- the pope’s greatest gift has been in his calling every one of us to a direct encounter, not with doctrine or moralism or human concepts of Christ, but with Christ Himself.

I need this, you need this, our friends need this, our enemies need this. How easy, amid all the distractions, temptations, controversies, and worries, to forget the One Thing necessary: the Joy of the Gospel, the Person of Jesus.

Icon by Sean Flaherty

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God vs Evil Monsters

Since the beginning of time people have been constructing evil monsters in their minds and calling them ‘God’. One of the most evil of the monsters is said to have deliberately created billions of human souls destined for an eternity of unimaginable torment, and there is nothing these poor souls can do about it. Lesser monsters ‘will’ that all their human creations live forever in bliss, but alas, cannot prevent most of them from suffering forever, as the humans are so weak-willed. So, knowing this beforehand, as any respectable ‘God’ does, he still creates them. The medieval and Byzantine version, as evidenced in iconography, imagined about half of humanity going to the dark, the others in bliss, the mark of, if not an evil creator, at least an incompetent redeemer. A lot of people who do not believe in the evil or inept monster they have been taught is ‘God’ think they are atheists. They are not, and in fact are closer to the Kingdom of God than the devotees of the evil monsters.

Religion for Assholes

Yes, I have been addressing Calvinism and other deformed religions here a lot lately. I have mentioned before how every one of my ancestors, insofar as I can tell, were Calvinists: Irish and Scots Presbyterians and New England Puritans, for the most part, with a Huguenot and a Dutch Calvinist thrown in as the only forbears not from the British Isles. They all went Wesleyan, God bless them, by the 19th century, and one, my maternal grandmother, Catholic in the 20th, when her widowed father married one Edith O’Connor, daughter of Patrick O’Connor. But as Irish Catholicism is heavily influenced by Jansensism, that hardly was a cure. The after effects of this religion are not negligible in my family, whether they called themselves Presbyterians or Methodists or Catholics, and they are not negligible in our culture. One of the touchstones of our history, present in every anthology, was Jonathan Edwards’ sermon Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God. Even in the antinomian reaction, Jean Calvin continues to make his nasty presence felt in American culture. And Calvinism is experiencing a revival among evangelicalism, which cannot be a good thing.

And even if a religion is rooted in revealed truth, when God is revealed to a violent anal retentive, God will be described by the recipient of the revelation as a violent anal retentive, every time. Man may be created in the image of God, but he remakes God in his own image most of the time.

A religion that is based on the belief that you are among a chosen few plucked from inevitable destruction is a religion for assholes, the anti-solidarity religion, which worships one of the worst evil monsters ever devised, instead of the True God, the incomprehensible Being that Christ defined as “Love”.

A Universalist* Faith

For if God is good and loves mankind, as the Divine Liturgy proclaims, he is no cruel despot. He did not create most of his human creatures, his children, made in his image, for destruction. The only kind of Father who would punish his children with an eternity of torment is an abusive father, of a cosmic scale.

Does saying this make me a universalist?

Yes, it does.

But I am a universalist with an asterisk:

*With the caveat that humans are free, even to be assholes for eternity.

Another Asterisk

I am also an apophatist with an asterisk. In this case the * leads to this:

While I may believe that any human construct obscures more than it reveals about the Holy Mystery we call “God”, we may, and must, believe one thing: God is good and loves humanity. Amen.

(Painting by Paul Serusier)

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